Lately, I have not been producing any online content, setting my shop up, or promoting my writing. Nor have I been writing at all. The cause of this pause in production? My depression has had a hand in it for sure but mainly bad glasses were to blame.
I changed my optician due to my house move and convenience - that was a bad idea. The glasses I bought, particularly my reading glasses, were not up to the complicated task of coaxing some sort of useful sight from my defective eyes. Not only that but at the ripe old age of 47 I have begun to develop a cataract! On top of that, I managed to destroy my reading glasses by running over them with my wheelchair. D'oh!
This string of events was enough to stop me in my tracks. I have (eventually) gotten a new pair of reading specs and I can to attempt to catch up with the physical side of creating - my mind has been running at full speed when I was temporarily stopped from writing - and I will get both this site and my book company site (www.esskayebooks.com) back up to full speed and then I can begin a trilogy I have been planning.
I'm back and I will be keeping this pair of glasses safe lol!
MLSmith.com has been in an unplanned hiatus lately. Mental health can be disruptive :(
I'm back and will get caught up in the next couple of weeks..
For those who do not know me this will be brand new - those who do... it's the same old same old...
I have depression and anxiety. Recently I have been having a bad time and have gotten very little achieved. I seem to have emerged from the other side and am raring to go and make up for the time I have wasted. I have drafted a seemingly endless list of tasks I need to complete.
Some of these jobs are legal requirements and, as stated in my original mission statement, will take precedence. After those are the tasks I need to complete to make this website and the parent site (www.esskayebooks.com) work more smoothly. Those have a two-week completion target and then I will begin work on marketing and the creation of the next book.
As the down patches seem to happen less frequently, I am hoping the breaks in my work will eventually become a distant (bad) memory.
To those who suffer from depression and anxiety as I do, I urge you to talk to someone. If not a professional then a loved one or a friend or anyone who will lend you their ear. It helps. It really does. As I have said for years - it'll be okay in the end - if it's not okay, then it's not the end.
All the best to you all!
My first box of books arrived today! I have had single copies delivered many times but this is a MAJOR step to the shop opening. Keep your eyes open for more news and the opening announcement!
I discovered my love for reading at the same time, or perhaps slightly after, I developed my hatred of football. Both strong emotions were kindled by teachers; one who dismissed my genuine desire to use sport as a way to lose weight and the other by a caring headmistress who pointed me to the library.
Rowlands Gill Library was a small branch but it was less than five minutes from my house (quicker if you run!) and had a librarian, Lindy, who became the centre of my life. An avid fan of the TV show Dr Who (Tom Baker reincarnation) I quickly found and read every television time-traveller novel they had. Which led to more and more literature.
I read everything in the children's library, absorbing plots, themes, and characters at a seemingly unstoppable speed. Noticing my voracious reading - everything they had to offer, Lindy broke the rules and issued my with an ADULT library ticket. As one would expect, my choice in books was monitored and censored.
From the early reading of my youth, the desire to actually write was born. This was as far as it went until I met my disability. Then I started to write. The joy of getting into print led to the need to be published again and again. This turned into the need to edit and publish rather than 'only' write.
The overwhelming urge to make a book, drew me to Dead Guns Press, and John Thompson. I absorbed much knowledge and the short-lived Skinned Knuckles Press was rushed into existence.
With the creation, and expansion, of self-publishing, it has never been easier to get your work printed. As was the case with Skinned Knuckles Press, you can't polish a turd, and the new companies fold as quickly as they appear.
Esskaye Books has already survived the tricky first year and a brighter, bolder future is evolving and the to answer why start a business? can only be as Billie Piper once said - because I want to.
Only a couple of weeks after it should have been on sale, I have ordered the first physical copy of "Olverston Grange ...and Other Stories"
This book is the culmination of ten years of trial runs, education, and spectacular failures and has given birth to the book I am proudest of.
Once I have okayed the print edition, my online shops at both www.esskayebooks.com and www.mleonsmith.com will go live! After a frustrating, delay-ridden pregnancy, Esskaye Books will be fully born, along with its younger sibling www.mleonsmith.com!
More unexpected and unwelcome news today but this time mixed with positivity and potential. I am holding on to the positive and disregarding the negative.
More delays with printer but I honestly remember which goof is mine and which theirs now lol But the delay should have been considered and planned for so that is most definitely my fault. Always build some spare time into any plan! lol
Make some time to visit the site I have linked - it belongs to a writer pal of mine (who I worked for/with on Dead Guns Press)
I can't recommend his trilogy-in-progress enough! Excellent story telling and an exciting tale.
Ten? Wow! The pre-launch rambles were never meant to to be a thing for so long. The reasons for the delay in the site's launch are many but tomorrow the last reason will be (hopefully) put to rest.
With this final problem overcome, I will be able to move onto the final stage before stock is brought in and sales can begin and mleonsmith.com and esskayebooks.com can finally fully open.
In the background of a global pandemic, death in my family, and my own battle with disability, I have been able to fulfil my life-long dreams then what is stopping you?
The problem with suffering from anxiety is everything seems to go tar-slow at times. I am waiting for work to be finished at my printer's end and have hit the expected delays caused by Easter. Totally expected but enough to send my anxiety into overdrive. I am still making small changes to the site and have a big overhaul of www.esskayebooks.com planned too but my mind is screaming "You should be..."
The list of jobs I invent is endless and the delays make it appear nothing is happening. Trust me, it is...
So it's April Fools Day but I am finding very little to laugh at. Due to technical issues (largely not my fault) the book and store will be launching late. Annoying but not insurmountable. On the more positive side, I've started planning the first of the 120 short stories and the rules dictating their creation.