Yesterday was particularly fun. It was the 21st birthday of a friend of mine who I have known since she was a little girl. She has grown into a beautiful, respectful young lady. Well done to her parents for the excellent job they have done :)
I was surrounded by friends (and even made a couple of new ones), the band were good and I wasn't drunk! I even joined in with the dancing - all good stuff!
This is what I've missed though. Working hard all week and having a blow out at the weekend is something that I want back. I need to find a job! The sense of value in myself has been greatly diminished by my disability. Just because I am "in a wheelchair" am I expected to discard my goals and ambitions? I have always worked hard and so much of my self-esteem is tied into being able to provide for myself. Using a wheelchair is not a valid reason to give that up.
In order to reach my goals, I'm just going to push harder. Harder with the job search, harder with the writing, harder with the promotion of my books.
In the meantime though I plan to write and make this blog daily (which it kinda is already)
I'm away now to put my plan into motion.