I have come to the conclusion it is for whatever the hell I need to talk about. Sometime it'll be about my writing, sometimes about how I feel and other times... well just chatting.
This morning I'm not at my best. My sleep last night was sketchy at best. I had nightmares for the first time in ages and woke a few times.
"But you're an author!" say the voices in my head. "Write it down!"
The trouble is dreams, even nightmares, are fleeting and the details melt away so quickly. Would I really want to sit for hours writing the details of something that woke me so viciously?
On a more positive note, I have a job interview in three days time and I really think I have a good chance. The last few years have building slowly (too bloody slowly!) to me getting back into the job market and once again, I feel I may have cracked it. It's an apprenticeship which means I will get a qualification as well be back in the workplace. Even better, the company I am interviewing for is in a sector that has come to mean more and more to me in the last few years. If I could play even a small part in it then I would be extremely happy!
I am writing more and more, the grieving is passing and the words are coming back. It's still at a slower rate than I would like but at least it is happening. The work on the Blue Jackets novel (still untitled) is proving to be very satisfying and there are a couple chapters that are among the best things I have ever written. I'm also providing editing and proof-reading services again. My cousin, Rob Moran, is my only client at the moment (and I'll keep it that way for now) but his short story has been accepted for publication! So I must be doing something right - and he is gooooood!
I'm relearning to type again too. My right hand is playing up but its tried that shit in the past and failed to hold me back - why it thinks this time will be any different is beyond me. It should just stop because I'm always going to win!
Well,. I've got lots to do today so I'm going to say goodbye but it has been lovely speaking to you again and I'll be back soon.