I have read testimonies from people who 'had to have' their daily Diet Coke and how giving it up was hard. Another 'habitual' user who would always have an aspartame-containing piece of a gum after a meal. This list goes on and on with everyone complaining about their mild symptoms. Being a fan of Memebase, what springs to mind is "Bitch, please!"
If I had a can of Diet Coke, fine. I would drink it and be happy. If it was a 2 litre bottle - same story. I would buy sugar free gum in multipacks and they wouldn't last very long at all. Being a life-long fatty I would automatically reach for the long fat alternatives for everything. Being a Type II diabetic, I am conditioned to reach for the sugar free alternative for everything.
In short, I was a sweetener junkie.
My daily intake was probably way in excess of anything planned by the makers of the products. I would love to absolve myself of guilt by saying I didn't know but I have to take my responsibility seriously. No-one forced me to be a glutton.
What is happening is good though. The mood swings are lessening, in both severity and length, I can also spot when one is coming and use techniques taught by my counsellor to mitigate them. I have had several medical issues that were blamed on the MS or Diabetes (that are too icky to go into here) that are also lessening. Coincidence? Possibly...
This is not an easy road to take but then again the best ones never are.
On the writing side of things...
Blue Jackets #4: when will a title be found has reached a crossroads. I have two different plans written for it and I am at the crossroads. Do I go left or right? The outcome for Tim and Tuesday will be very different depending on how the story goes...
I am also still writing 'A Little Red' and toying with stealing a trick I've used in 'Thomas and the Missing Sock' which could make it very amusing indeed!
Things are on the up!