"Have you given up on walking again?"
For those who don't know - a quick recap - I'm a wheelchair user (though I bang on about it so much, it seems like the whole world must know!). Since the day I first got a wheelchair (24th July 2009 - if you're interested), I have sworn I would learn to walk again - even with the aid of crutches.
Time and again, I see inspirational videos on Youtube of people who have overcome their physical disability and got out of their chairs. You cannot fail to be impressed and inspired by these people - what they have done is truly remarkable but, me being me, managed to turn this around and use it as a stick to beat myself with. If they can do it, why not me?
The thing is, they all have one thing in common. They have recovered from a devastating injury whereas I am still being injured. My M.S. is still there and will never get better (unless they work out how to regrow Myelin). The most obvious signs, for me, that things are still not right is how many numb fingers I have on a daily basis. Some days are a lot worse than others.
So have I given up? Or have I just stopped beating myself up?
What I do know is that I'm ready to give it another go. So another round of exercises to strengthen leg muscles, painful stretching of my atrophied hamstrings, and many many falls await. Let's see how far I get this time...
On another note I am flying through the next chapter I am writing of the latest Blue Jackets book. I had been stuck for a long while but I worked out how to proceed and things are going well.